Remembering Who is in Control

I'm in my hospital room by myself a lot, and, being the thinker that I am, my mind just goes and goes. It is hard to shut it down, and this sometimes (okay, I'll admit, many times) this leads to worry and anxiety. Most of the time, I'm feeling okay about things, but then my mind gets going...and I worry...and I get anxious...

And as I sit here and worry over things, I know the best thing to do is to place my concerns in God's hands because I'm not in control and worrying does me no good at all. The day before I found out I had to come to the hospital, our sermon was about God being in control--good timing, right?! One key point was on how, if we will truly let God be in control, it can really reduce our anxiety and stress. I know this but sometimes, when things are going well, I don't think about it as much. And when things start to seem "out of control" in my mind, I know that I have to re-focus and trust God to take care of things.

It has been so evident since I arrived at the hospital that many people are praying for our situation and for God to take care of things. There was so much improvement (and so quickly) with the problem that caused me to be admitted in the first place, and there is not a doubt in our minds that God listened to the prayers and intervened. It just shows how big and powerful God is! So I’m going to ask, if you don’t mind, that if you’re praying for us, please pray for some of the things I’m anxious about…

1. That the cord blood would continue to flow in the right direction to baby H and that the resistance would stay low and even improve
2. That baby H would really grow in the next few weeks--his arms, legs, head, torso, etc.--I mean really grow where there is no way to explain the improvement except that God intervened
3. That baby H will have a safe delivery
4. That my blood pressure would stay low enough and that I would not develop toxemia so that I can stay off of medicine that would keep me from seeing baby H for a few days after he is born
5. That baby H's time in the NICU would be minimal
6. That Michael and S would continue to do well without me at home
7. That God would be in control of my mind and thoughts as I'm here at the hospital, especially when I'm alone
8. That we will keep our focus on trusting God in the midst of this little "storm" in our lives.

As I finished typing this post, God brought this verse to my mind. “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” (1 Peter 5:7) I just have to keep focusing on this! Thank you for praying with and for us.